All My Little Words
by
ciaan
All
characters in this story are copyright to Chiho Saito/B-Papas.
Touga gazed at the brown skin above
him. He put his hand up and touched its chest. "What would happen if
someone tried to draw your sword?" He didn't expect an answer. Answers
came most often when he never asked.
Blue-green eyes stared coolly into
his, and the man chuckled. "No one can touch my heart. It isn't really
there."
"Did you hide it, like inside
an egg inside a mouse inside a chicken inside a monkey inside a bear inside a
dragon who lives in a castle on an island of rose thorns surrounded by seven
seas?"
"Maybe." Akio bent to kiss
him.
"Or maybe it's dead."
Touga whispered into his lips. "You are life and death." Hands
caressed his bare thighs, and he batted them away. "No. I'm tired of this.
Show me the ends of the world again."
He laughed silkily. "Endings...
is that all you think about?" The air in the room breezed softly on
Touga's skin. Fingers began to wander along his nerves. He closed his eyes. Ice
was creeping through the marrow of his bones, fire ran in his muscles. Each
cell in his bloodstream was full of light. He opened his eyes and the room was
gone. Dark sky full of stars surrounded him, and he floated. The stars
coalesced into a shape of light, a being wrapped around him. The light hurt his
pupils, and he shut his eyes again.
The fire and the ice played together
inside his body. Sensations of pure pleasure trickled through his brain, as
pain ran up and down his nerves. "Devil..." he whispered.
"Lucifer, morning star, bringer of light, fallen one..."
**Such pretty names you call me.**
The disembodied voice shone in his blood, like the light. **More.**
"Maya, Yama, kama, the agony
and the ecstasy, ignorance, temptation, bondage, lies, Iblis, samsara, like a
raging, hard, horny Mephistopheles come for my soul..." A wave of pleasure
and pain bore him up on its crest, rising higher. "Incubus, vampire,
demon, knowledge of good and evil, you are lord of the flies the way a spider
is, trapping and killing them in your web... and the spiderman is having me for
dinner tonight." The wave bore higher, about to break. "There's an
ocean of darkness and I drown in the night... You are the way and the truth, no
one comes to eternity but through you..." The wave broke, crashing down
upon him, smashing him, pushing and pulling him up and down in this place where
there was no up and down, grinding him against the sand, returning him to the
chaos from before creation, and then receding, leaving him high and dry, on the
bed again.
He turned, and Akio sat there next
to him, fully clothed, calm, pristine, staring at him. Staring at me like I'm the one sweaty and disheveled, hair a mess,
scratchmarks and cum on my stomach... carnal, corporeal... and I am. I've seen
you the same way, but you don't have to be that way... and I do. He turned
away again under that gaze.
Akio reached out and played with a
strand of his hair. "Kiryuu Touga... You are the second most interesting
piece in play right now." Yes,
Touga thought, and the most
interesting... is Prince Utena. "I have a meeting in my office in five
minutes." He smiled. "But, what's five minutes here and there?"
"I'll leave." Touga said.
He sat up and reached for his clothes. Akio came to stand before him. He waved
a hand lightly over Touga's body, a gesture Touga was sure was purely for show.
"Everyone will see you as
clean, except yourself." He leaned down and kissed Touga again, touching
nothing but his lips. Then he was gone in a swirl of hair. Touga dressed and
left, not bothering to do anything to the door. It would take care of itself. Clean...
Things
I quoted
“Like
a raging, hard, horny Mephistopheles come for my soul...”
-Placebo,
Then The Clouds Will Open For Me
“And
the spiderman is having me for dinner tonight...”
-The
Cure, Lullaby
“There’s
an ocean of darkness and I drown in the night...”
-The George Fox Song, a traditional Quaker
song
No,
I don’t think Touga actually knows any of these songs. But who knows?
As
for the rest of it.... Well, they’re all references to religious or
philosophical ideas, or some myth or fairytale.... Look them up.